Does not have to respect me.

 Respects public figures strangers neighbors  

Those he she doesn't live with

 

SHIT AND CRAP ARE FAV FAVORITE WORDS

 gma said horse shit frequently

Easily annoyed by seeing hearing others do anything

 what they wear 

how they dress

how they talk sound 

and acts annoyed very annoying then blames other for looking or sounding like shit

Attracted to certain things uncontrollably. like fishnet stockings, any clothing designed deemed sexy

Deliberately says does things to aggravate pick fights with me then says I am the troublemaker

 blames me for his  her anger and problems

when I am the PEACEMAKER 

Says weather and people are crazy

Nosey and watches neighbors constantly. Worried about what people think and do.

Chooses to believe he has no choice then tells me i am throwing up roadblocks

 PUSHES restrictions upon others

Chooses to believe he has no choice then tells me i am throwing up roadblocks

I don't have a choice, said frequently about things he DOES have the ability to choose. DECISIONS are difficult

Extremely susceptible to marketing ads name brand items . Easily influenced by what others do and what is seen

 visual primarily focuses on what is seen

highly critical about what is seen

compares self with others to see what the norm is 

regarding clothing, food, practically any item or thing 

asks questions like what do you think about this outfit these clothes i am wearing this car i am driving the way my house yard or anything else looks appears or its usefulness

status appearance is of utmost importance

brand names are considered the best: brand loyalty is practiced (oh that tastes better, is better, is the best due to the brand)

says often YOU should be doing thinking eating wearing owning this or that

throws shit on any thought word action or item said or owned or wanted by another person if they don't agree with it and its significance

in essence robbing others of their choice by condemning 

personal preferences that differ from what they think the NORM is

(FEAR of humiliation, critical attacks, being left out, ostracized, hated)

FEARS loss of freedom IMPOSES will upon others

Believes voting the the most important thing a person can do.

 I say OUR daily choices are also extremely important along with voting once or twice a year

I don't give a fuck damn shit

 About you 

What you are , want, feel, think, want, do

5 minutes of I love you 5 years weeks of I hate you

Fake glitter shiny money material things most attractive. Natural is shunned

highly resistant to any change unless he initiates it

only visits familiar places

I feel bad for so and so SAID often then does nothing to visit with the person

 true of john w l

his own brother jerry, sister karen

ricky 

virtually any person 

shame guilt ridden driven

Anti social paranoid personality

 avoids social gatherings situations party parties get togethers 

dislkes family events holidays celebrations

avoids community center

says can't stand scrutiny that everybody scrutinizes him and everyone else

avoids will not attend group activities events including

sports, club activities even with subjects he does such as metal detecting ..won't go says he already knows all about it doesn't need anyone else's input information knowledge

camping

outings

dancing

dining out

suspicious of any and every person : neighbors, family, associates, any person in any field of work or category includes doctors, hair stylists, restaurant workers

says those people are paid to be nice (believing that a person is only being nice because it is their job and they are earnng money to do so...as if the person is not genuinely nice polite pleasant and hospitable)

csnnot work with other people on job in career in any type of joint activity. he thinks he must in in full control of any situation and he knows better than anyone else how to do anything

doesn't trust 

does not trust my judgment decisions on almost everything

literally says i don't know what i am doing, have no common sense, need help, can't do it or do it on my own, 

people are viewed as a threat

confident people are especially threatening

shame guilt ridden driven  

Doubtful doubts lots of things "I doubt it" skeptical sceptical

Says I can't believe I can't imagine I can't understand often concerning actual things that really are and have happened

 I can't believe

I can't imagine

I can't understand

I don't understand why (and makes no effort to try to figure it out)

It's hard to imagine

You can't do that

I don't believe you and I don't believe that

That's impossible

NOBODY does that or can do that

Childish

 infantile

age 2 or 3 

4, 5, 6

Total control freak

Takes over any project or thing I plan to do then gets pissed because I didn't do it fast enough for them

undermines devalues condemens almost everything i do

Sticks his fingers in almost everything without thought

Consistently violates boundaries of others

Family pattern

 suspicious of everyone

suspicious of family members, neighbors, strangers

paranoia

anti social

delusional

irrational fear(s)

processed foods and fast food preference addiction liking

Repeatedly buys food items and things we don't need because we already have

 can't seem to remember what we have in stock 

 https://psychcentral.com/quizzes/schizophrenia-test

Rockhill manor, Larry S

 ROCKHILL MANOR

4235 LOCUST ST

KANSAS CITY MO 64110

913-257-3558

Rockhill Manor is an Assisted Living Campus that provides supported housing for adults of all ages who have been diagnosed with a chronic mental illness. We have been located in Kansas City since 1972, nestled on peaceful grounds complete with brick pathways, a cascading fountain, fragrant magnolia trees, and smiling, tenured staff.

https://www.rockhillmanor.com/

THIS IS WHERE LARRY STILLWELL 

LIVED FOR AT LEAST 20 YEARS UNTIL HE DIED

TEST

Hypersensitive to smells, sights/visual things seen, sounds, things heard/words said

 processing what is seen

 heard 

smelled is often

confused

and interpreted as something it is not

things are contorted

twisted into something else

delusions delusional

hallucinations

hallucinates

assumes and concludes 

jumps to conclusions and believs they are the truth

will not listen to any other view or someone else's insights

into things

Picks fights daily. Shit hits the fan. Internal exposions

Blew a gasket again over frankspeech trump biden 10-25-2022

 angry mad 

outburst

violent

upset 

tells me i dont listen to whats going on dont talk to him until i listen to it

that they speak the truth 

and mainstream media is all lies

that i think i know everything

that i should be angry about other people's driving that i let people walk all over me run over me

that my neutrality it wrong

i should take sides be exactly like him

IN Fact he projects himself behaviors upon me

HE is reactive 

not responsive

not thoughtful patient or kind period

i said i told you many years ago only way to get along with you is to totally agree with everything you think say and do because you can't tolerate any differences in anything about anyone

Imposes will upon others. Will not put up with same treatment

Accounting, record keeping detested, reluctantly performed. Relies on memory instead of pen and paper

 believes his memory is most accurate

doesn't even fill out deposit slip for bank

says I know what I spend my money on I don't need to do that 

keep records

Won't listen and says I don't listen and or other people don't and are not aware

Can't stand smugness from others yet is smug as hell

 smug

conceited

egotistical

know it all

Goes out of way to make others feel bad, guilty, shamed, hated and that they owe them

 

Breaks neck to break someone else's neck (figuratively and literally at times thru faux strangulation)

Fault finding focused

Fault finding focused

focus on blemish mar flaw mistake 

focus on fault

rarely notices anything good nice beautiful wonderful lovely 

Critical comment is first thing out of mouth to begin each day and continues throughout entire day

Trouble letting things go. Difficult to get rid of useless junk items

Small minded Narrow mind

does not acknowledge what I say, instead blameshifts

 does not acknowledge what I say

instead turns conversation around in circles

blaming blameshifting things onto me so he

doesn't have to acknowledge that he did 

something wrong incorrectly / made a mistake

invalidates most anything i say

Extremely poor social skills socially inept, awkward

Won't answer a yes or no question easily

Asks questions that can't be answered immediately or accurately

 When was the last time

How much money have you spent on gasoline?

how many times

Ugly is being broke (not having money) his response many many years ago

 more than 10 years ago a conversation i began about ugly ugle versus beautiful ..i was talking about inner attitude. he turned it into money immediately as he does with all things

Terrorizes me and animals and others like children

Will not forgive

Shames and guilt pushed onto me shaming blaming

 due to his her own guilt from bad unethical behavior

and thoughts feelings of hate hatred

vengeance

Acts like a spoiled brat ass hole

Praises him or herself for irate angry mad fits and temper tantrums

says  

that burns my ass 

that just pisses me off

i'm ticked off

Views life as a big fight, a war that is constant

Talks trash constantly about others not realizing it makes him her look trashy

Perceives me as a threat or anyone who is self directed and does not 100% agree with him her

Expects others to instantly react (just like they do) I WANT IT RIGHT NOW ATTITUDE & AM PISSED WHEN OTHERS DON'T REACT FAST ENOUGH

 thinks i should also only do what they are doing and want 

How to be classy: 20 tips that make all the difference

 How to be classy: 20 tips that make all the difference

 anybody who would .....blankety blank (think say or do anything I don't agree with) is bad worthless crazy nuts 

high class people don't do this or that

wants to be classy but isn't does not know how to be

tells me i have no class when ticked off angry irate upset

those who have money look and act like this

talks about white trash people frequently

says people are disgusting

admires strangers they haven't even met in person

movie stars tv entertainment high political power persons

puts them on pedastal and doesn't know any of these people personally

People basher

 this is not god like 

i'm your best friend the best one you will ever have, your only friend gma

i haven't treated you bad mls gma

Pissed off because I am not pissed off

Exercise !!!

 strenuous 

back breaking

sweating

(which is good but doesn't change personality and make them happy at all )

Doesn't like scary horror movies

 could be because

they are the monster

know exactly how the bad guy is going to act, what they think and do

How dare you disagree with me by stating your own observations, thoughts, feelings, anything that I don't tell you to think

After all I've done for you said gma

Miss woman of the world ... said by gma when I was a teenager

 in response to her telling me to tell someone else something nasty about them she was saying often

You think you know it all . said by mls

Undermines my decisions, words, activities. Treats me like I don't know what I am doing and he/she must tell me: Controlling

Views people and animals as worthless

He she is the bomb. I remain calm

Brecks neck to answer phone regardless of what is doing

Knows about the world events but not about himself/herself

Possibility of poverty from conception

 Upbringing

 Lack of nutritious food, maternal nurturing and missing father lack of paternal model causing programming of neural synapses 

Formulated repeated in constant pattern cycle . Learned behavior difficult to unlearn or recognize any issues with self 

Projects flaws failure mistakes outwardly onto environment and other beings especially humans sometimes projects anger blame upon animals 

PERPETUATES THE PROBLEMS

 https://www.janssenschizophreniainjections.com/about-schizophrenia

Hates innocence sweetness nice naivete naive SAYS IT IS STUPID AND BEING STUPID

Smirk over desiderata poem .. they dont understand the meaning of it

 I remember 30 years ago when I had a poster of the desiderata which a freind of mine gave me for a christmas present back in the late 80s and

he said i don't like that poster i dont want it on the wall the sheetrock gets holes in it 

and the smirking condescending words and attitude he expressed 

his disapproval of this one simple thing that i absolutely love

so i had to get rid of the poster 

because he hated it and what it represents

he did not know what the poem meant 

and did not care 

The #1 Emotion Driving A Narcissist's Mean Streak

 #1 Emotion driving a narcissts mean streak  REVENGE

Threats, accusations, assumptions are frequent

Doesn't know how to make himself of herself happy

Believes everyone and everything should conform to their wishes

FEIGNS FAKES PRETENDS HELPING PEOPLE: ULTIMATE GOAL IS SELFISH NEED TO CONTROL

BOTTOMLESS PIT NEVER SATISFIED OR HAPPY WITH MUCH OF ANYTHING OR ANYONE: THE HOLE IN THE BOAT

FOCUS ON FLAWS OF ME AND OTHERS TO BLOCK ME FROM FEELING GOOD AND THINKING IN REALITY

 LOGIC TO THEM IS

IF THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME AND OTHER PEOPLE

WE DON'T HAVE TO FOCUS ON YOU (THE NARCOPATH)

TIGHT LIPPED WITH INFORMATION SHARING SO OTHERS CAN BENEFIT TOO: STINGY

GRUDGINLY UNWILLINGLY HELPS OTHERS ; EVERYBODY OWES THEM, THEY DONT OWE ANYONE A THING NOT EVEN POLITENESS

 COMPLAINS

WHINES BITCHES

FOCUS ON THE COST OF MONEY AND EFFORT INVOLVED FOR ANY THING DONE

FOR ANYONE BUT THE SELF

COMPLICATES SIMPLE SIMPLICITY THINGS

BULLIES BACK DOWN

 DON'T WANT TO ANSWER QUESTIONS,

EASY YES OR NO ANSWERS ARE ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE

 RIGHT WING

CONSPIRACY THEORIST

DICTATOR

FASCIST

RACIST

PREJUDICE

INFLEXIBLE

https://www.yourtango.com/2017307353/16-signs-person-evil-and-you-need-stay-away

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 https://www.yourtango.com/heartbreak/signs-doesnt-love-just-loves-fixing-you

9 CLEAR SIGNS HE'S PLAYING GAMES WITH YOU

 https://fb.watch/g8EtCDuQrM/

9 signs 

 https://fb.watch/g8EtCDuQrM/

Be sweet until you get the treat

Is going to incinerate himself due to hatred and anger, fear self and life loathing

Uses up wrings out sucks life out of people and things before throwing them away like garbage

 squeezes out every possible drop of air water life 

out of someone or something before

finally letting go 

and tossing them/it out after done with it

Just like the person is a lifeless thing like a rock 

or a piece of dirt

Mean selfish inflexible

Does not like intelligent strong women or men. They are a threat

 threatening to his domination and control issues

If I'm going to look at pictures of you I'd rather look at pictures of you when you were young.... 10-13-22 MLS

Why do I need to look at pictures of you, I can look at you all the time

 must be same reason strategy for the ex

ecm staring at thousands of porn all the time

Can dish it out but can't take it (criticism, threats, hatred, meanness, any negative thing)

Suffers from insane jealousy often

Thinks somebody else has it better and easier than them

I want this but can't get it type of thinking

Wants something won't accept help doesn't know how to get it and thinks has to do it all themself/himself/herself

Sighs of disgust are frequent

My calm cool attitude drives them crazy

Thinks he/she knows what I'm going to say. Fills in my sentences. Frequently wrong.

Looks good tops cooks good / he or she

Got married because "it was the thing to do" NOT because of love and devotion

Thrives on discord, war, bad news

I don't believe you. I don't believe that.

Smirks, sneers, sighs in disgust at me often

I dont care what you have to say. Says often.

Social visits are not part of behavior. They have a purpose and want something from me/you for each visit

Nice to me right before wanting sex. Returns to hateful devaluing stage right afterwards

Asks lots of personal and stupid questions

Expect me or others to be happy under their full control

How can you eat that, think that, do that, they say to me or you about many different things

I would never do such a thing , they say

Rude mean and condescending

Expects me and others to be accountable yet they don't have to account for what they say or do

Myself and my best are never good enough

Doesn't like horror movies, scary, monster or learning about behavior of criminals.

 why? becaue they think like one

Name brands, brand specific loyalty dominate. Says they taste better or are better.

Self analysis is out of the question

Hypercritical at all times

 https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/love-in-the-age-narcissism/202203/the-narcissistic-cycle-abuse

I work my ass off for you and you dont appreciate it

 Reality. They don't appreciate me or you 

Disgusting is a favorite pet word

You must work your balls off or you dont deserve it

Simple tasks are a nightmare. Simple pleasures dont exist.

Nothing but the best for entitled narc narcopath narcissist while others get scum nil

Doesn't see a need to change himself. Complacent. Uncritical satisfaction with self.

Blasts tv casting Trump stump or any other thing he likes when I am in kitchen living room cleaning so I have to listen to it and I don't like it

 then said why do you do that stomping around talking to yourself when I am trying to listen to this... I don't do that when you're watching something" 

FACT is I don't watch anything on his tv in living room unless it is what he puts on.

I never turn on the television or stereo in there.

can't stand any upbeat music like dance hiphop rap beats drums happy uplifting and will not dance moving body freely

throws negs and shit on each thing i say and each thing other people say and do and are

 outlet with usb charger i mentiooned my son got a new one at menards "oh that draws current all the time"

school "you can't go you're too old (when i was 31 years old he said that) and it costs too much money and you already owe on a student loan (which was paid off over 20 years ago)"

dancing, modelling me "no one wants to look at a 60 year old woman"

when i am talking to him as in last night or most of the time "what's that smell?" and sneers and turns up his nose

i am talking to him and he looks at me and finds fault with something about me such as "your hair looks greasy" "that doesn't look right with that bra. it's crooked." 

i don't believe that

you can't do that

that will never work

well good luck trying because it won't work

that is impossible

how many other women do such as such

no one will buy that, do that or want that

that's bullshit

you have a nasty personality (in reality his is the very nasty rotten attitude)

Believes fear is a powerful thing. Says it is good. .. to be afraid.

Can't stand to see me relaxed confident and happy. Must throw mudballs shit horrible things at me trying to knock me down

 "The world is a terrible place. "

Worries nonstop

Can't stand to be rained on. Has umbrella when it rains.

Chip on shoulder most of the time: Actually a boulder on the shoulder

Grabs a negative thing and pounds on it for hours on end

Lacks grace. Euphemisms are not used. Direct insults and attacks are the method of choice.

Fault finding, constantly critical. Hateful. Negative. Perfectionistic. Judgemental.

Does not want solutions. Keeps things difficult

Hideous rotten personality

Extremely visual. What is seen with eyes eyeballs is first foremost top priority

 igonores my words when i am talking when in my presence

trys tries to figure out my mood, feelings thoughts then redirect me to some thing he or she is focusing on

as if i don't have feelings or thoughts of my own

Very easily fooled by someone with makeup on or wearing any type of outfit of clothing

Thinks he knows the truth and has all the answers

A shiny tomato or apple that is fake tastes like crap

Thinks clothing, appearances ownership of material things make him her a better person

 fancy cars

collectors

clothing

shoes

collecitbles owned

Curmudgeon : Bad tempered person

 cur·mudg·eon

[kərˈməjən]

NOUN

1. a bad-tempered person, especially an old one.

   synonyms
   bad-tempered person · crank