Saturday, September 30, 2023
Friday, September 29, 2023
Tuesday, September 26, 2023
i see patterns of behavior similar in certain people i have known
narcos might be like this
impatient rude
drawn to politics
arguments , circular never resolving things, never going anywhere
obsessed with accumulating material things, money
sex obsession often secret in the dark unknown to the world they hide it well from public
appear nice polite to strangers, evil to those close to them\
impatient
in a hurry
have to have it all right now
difficult to think of consequences
hard to plan for the future
hungry, horny, whatever, cant wait want it NOW
screams yells fits at seeing any item tossed out in the trash
has a fit if thinks any object suffers an "injury" yet psychologically tortures people without a thought about what they said or did to hurt the person
fast food preferred, doesnt want to go to any efforts to make food or clean up the mess afterwars
only thinks about immediate desires wants deeds
sees things as duties, even things that are supposed to given out of love and appreciation
cant understand why anyone would do amything out of kindness of heart
its all about the money and "equal" exchange... IE : I do this then YOU do that
believe that "fairness" should exist ON their terms
pushes other people as much as possible
thinks they have to push people to think or do anything
layson
broke his neck to get there on time
all about the money
do about anything to get money
ethics were out of question and not considered
push push push everything to the limit
had no limits could not understand or put limits on anything
overachiever over achieve over do overeat, over it all
had to have constant outside stimulation; music, videos noise going on constantly
never meditated; said that is for some people, not me
work for money, sell it for money, cheat for it
accumulate stuff; could never have enough stuff
claimed most businesses did illegal stuff didnt file reported earnings accurately
the argument, everything is an argument
illogical, nothing can be presented in a logical fashion he argued each and every thing there was
refused basic maintenance of most anything
house cleaning out of the question
didnt even clean up his own body
obsessed with many things; music movies books porn, clothes, food, sex
obsessed with whipping people esp women videos illegally downloaded thousands of vids on dvds of torture sado masochism
advocated slavery and sadistic masochistic stuff, had an entire collection of movies magazines paraphenalia of whips canes rods
never concerned with doing the right thing
lost his drivers license ability to drive many many years ago and never told anyone why or what happened, a big secret of what he did to lost his privilege to drive
noncreative
never sold anything online, it took too much time effort work patience organization to sell online
a great consumer, buyer of any and all goods, not a creator of anything i ever saw
had 3 large storage units full of junk electronics fake flowers furniture that went to auciton sold at the flea market due to non payment of the bill
Monday, September 25, 2023
Never created always copied
John made burned copies of music and movies
1000s 10000s of illegally copied cds dvds tapes artwork he did stuffed ìn his house
Impatient hot tempered all about money material things sex physical pleasures food overeating over buying spending clothes collectibles electronics
Cheat lie steal however always paid me cash never wanted or allowed legitimate business
Thursday, September 21, 2023
Evil family members mother sisters brothers cousins
marjorie mae, the mother mom of the clan of 10 children she successfully trained to by paranoid and schizophrenic like herself
karen: vindictive constantly had it in for someone, lots of people, me, him, strangers, neighbors, family members, co workers, anyone basically anywhere. one story she told was that she put on her nice face went into the place guys lived she accused of gang raping her and she took their toothbrushes and put them into the toilet bowl scraping it.
deliberately got pregnant by al, a very nice guy, then accused him of conspiring to murder her and bury her body in the backyard. she accused him of punching, hitting her alot, throwing her on the couch and miscellaneous other accusations of verbal and physical abuse. she in fact was the abusive one, continually threatening others. she had more than one of her 'friends', buddies call us at home and leave messages stating he and she were going to kill us
dorothy chronic complainer. Said you dont exist the first time i met her. Each time around her pulls me off to side tells me how corrupt evil her sister sherry is.
jerry; attempted murder on his own brother with a knife he whipped out of his pocket while we were out in the country where there was no telephone, electricity no way to contact anyone for help
john: filed lawsuit 8 false allegations against us costing mike 14 thousand dollars in attorney lawyers fees in dallas texas 2010. Karen the sister was in cahoots and was the instigator with alleged wrongdoings . Judge tossed case out of court. John lost. Nothing could be proved because nothing wrong no criminal activities done. Ruining my and husbands life was the goal along with attempting to get all of the 250000 dollars of lawsuit money won from dead sister carol john karen dorothy mike sharon jerrys sister. John and karen wrote accusatory letters of fraud mike working for mafia and other insane lies to mikes boss at work. Sending letters via postal mail fax and packages.
david , cousin. Threatened to burn our house down . Later he committed suicide
Himself threatened muriatic acid spray in neighbor dogs eyes. He picked up handful of dirt with small rocks threw it into dogs face because it was barking at him and said that dog has no right barking at me.
Wednesday, September 20, 2023
Good that he doesn't read what I write or listen to what I say
then he has no idea what I am saying or doing or going to do
Perpetually confused
Tuesday, September 19, 2023
Monday, September 18, 2023
You wont find them doing these things
sitting around in a coffee shop having conversations with people
doing things not making them money
doing things uncomfortable for them
trying new stuff
accepting others as they are without judgment
truly empathizing with anyone
understanding charitable work
doing anything without first thinking what is in it for me, what am i going to get out of this
I Don't Understand You. I CANT Understand WHY
said frequently
You're strange
you're weird
you're a free spirit
I dont understand why you do what you do
Whats your purpose? Whats your point? What is your goal, your agenda?
What do you think you're getting out of this or going to get?
Sunday, September 17, 2023
Cant make plans. Always tells me at the last minute
why????
wants to be in control
doesnt want me there or to go
ruins every activity spent together anyway by complaining criticizing asking stupid questions constantly
trying to take over every single thing and dictate the whole scenario
Friday, September 15, 2023
Thursday, September 14, 2023
Wednesday, September 13, 2023
He hugged me last night
Came in my room laid on me gently hugging me said we need to hug each other more often
I said yeah everyday
First hug in many months from him
What is up with him I don't know
He spent day with his two older sisters in raymore Missouri
Maybe they hugged him?
Unusual behavior for typical ice man robot android machine man
Should I be suspicious? No clue
A rare bread crumb from narc
Tuesday, September 12, 2023
Ask These 7 Questions To a Narcissist & Watch them Squirm Here is the link to all my best resources: https://beacons.ai/narcabusecoach/
Ask These 7 Questions To a Narcissist & Watch them Squirm Here is the link to all my best resources: https://beacons.ai/narcabusecoach/
Why are you so nice to strangers?
Why are you so threatened by my differences?
What are some of your deepest pains and hurts?
Why is it impossible for you to admit flaws?
Do you think you need to change or grow in any way?
Do you genuinely believe that your opinions are facts and they supercede what other people think?
If you hate me so much why do you keep coming back?
Monday, September 11, 2023
Android robot faker wolf feigning knowledge
I knew that was going to happen. I had a feeling. Always said AFTER the fact/event. I suspected that. I knew that person was no good. You think you know everything don't you (NO, I know it all. You know nothing!) You shouldn't say that do that feel that ask that .. in fact you should not be breathing. You're not going to do anything unless I give you permission.
You have no common sense.
Nobody likes you for you they just want something out of you: they like you because you have a car or fill in the blank.
You're stupid!
You think you are special, smart, know everything, deserve anything... you think I should treat you like a quee
n.
Never wants to hear a repeat of what he/she said or did
screamed at me "I don't want to hear the facts !"
"quit complaining and bitching that's all you do!" says every time i recount nasty mean things he said and did
"I don't want to hear it!"
Shut the fuck up
The end of me endorsing him or talking about him to other people. Don't say anything to anyone especially if he hears me talking
they do not believe me anyway
he puts on the best fake facade around to others
Just shut up. You go on and on and on ! Enjoy the quiet during the ride. Sep 10, 2023
tells me the shut up as i began telling him about info in a book concerning virus vaccines which agrees with what he believes but he didnt give me the chance to tell him
then he proceeds to drive impatiently cussing out other drivers complain about wendys free frosty offer coupon booklet only chocolate strawberry available no vanilla like he wants
continually complains about each and every thing there is any where and every where
I wonder WHO said to HIM about ME "SHE just keeps going on and on and on"
had to have heard it somewhere he doesn't come up with stuff on his own
about image status money owning stuff not being a real ethical person
fakey nice voice put on when wants something
turns into vicious snake reptile instantly when upset usually by seeing hearing smelling something
Mother made life a living hell. She didn't kick her or him out
she made life miserable enough so they would leave
Family made him/her that way. It has nothing to do with me
Someone once told me that I made him that way
My answer "His mother made him like that. Not me."
Same thing applies to me or anyone else.
Sunday, September 10, 2023
Thinks he/she is in charge of me, my thoughts, feelings, expressions, activity choices, preferences, all of it.
says stuff like "I'll LET you" do such and such
He keeps telling me he needs a different personality
I totally agree. He does need a different one
however the chances are he won't get one.
Saturday, September 9, 2023
DISRESPECTFUL
CHUCK STRAND
JOHN LAYSon
ANN
MAE MARJORIE
ANY OTHER PERSON ANY PLACE I WORKED OR WAS THAT USED FOUL LANGUAGE TOWARDS ME
I WAS NEVER DEFENDED NOR SUPPORTED BUT BLAMED FOR THE PERPETRATORS BEHAVIOR EXACTLY LIKE HE DOES AND ACTS AND IS
A PATTERN OF DISRESPECT IS LEARNED AND ONCE INGRAINED UNCHANGEABLE
STILL WELL SUPPORTED THESE ABUSERS IN THEIR ENDEAVORS OF ABUSE
ABUSIVE LANGUAGE TREATING ME LIKE A WORTHLESS PERSON WORSE THAN ANYONE WOULD TREAT A DOG
Friday, September 8, 2023
It is ingrained pattern of behavior I cannot help or change
regardless of things I or anyone does the pattern remains the same
revolving around negativity, world disasters,
says 'we are in big trouble' frequently
listens to news opposite mainstream media which is conspiracy theory articles and claims it is the only true news, the truth
food, diet
stress relief techniques such as meditation, exercise, relaxation, focusing on something that feels good, gratitude DO NOT WORK with him
Wednesday, September 6, 2023
This is how people with schizophrenia really perceive the world
this is how people with schizophrenia really perceive the world
Imagine a world where strange voices interrupted your thoughts, or you saw people that others did not. Welcome to the nightmare of people with schizophrenia.
To have a diagnosis of schizophrenia must be akin to being told you have cancer but are we justified to be so scared of this mental disorder, or should we be more optimistic? Most of us would associate schizophrenia with hallucinations and auditory delusions, but the truth is that some people with schizophrenia do not experience these symptoms. In fact, there are many other symptoms that are indicative of schizophrenia, including behavioural disturbances, thought disorder, and affected perception.
Research has shown that people with schizophrenia are more likely to experience problems with their perception of the world. They find it extremely difficult to distinguish between reality and the imaginary world. Everything from their surroundings, time, their senses, and how they interpret information appears to be mixed up and confusing.
How would you cope if your mind starting betraying and you couldn’t trust what it told you anymore?
The anatomy of schizophrenia
The causes of schizophrenia are not fully understood, but we know that we derive information from our environment via our senses. This information undergoes processing where it is then stored into either one of two categories: something that has been experienced before, or something that is new.
We are able to go through life thanks to this processing, which gives us clues about what to expect, thanks to previous experience. So for instance, if you were walking outside and you heard wings flapping above your head, without looking, your brain would have put together many other experiences where you heard this noise and that information would lead you to believe the noise came from a bird.
These previous experiences are called schema. A schema relates to a pattern of behaviour or thought that organizes categories of information and the relationships among them.
The problem that people with schizophrenia have is that they find it difficult to access these schemas. So they have no back-up, no previous knowledge, and no helpful stored information that can help them make sense of what is going on around them.
There is also the factor that the schemas of people with schizophrenia are already distorted. Their schema, which is stored memories of earlier experiences, is often impaired experiences.
Because of this, people with schizophrenia often have no common sense. This is because of three factors:
Their beliefs are different from the normal view of the world.
It is difficult for them to understand what others are feeling or thinking.
They are likely to have impaired judgements about events or experiences.
Their judgement about the likelihood of events is impaired.
So what does this feel like for people with schizophrenia?
They may have trouble getting to grip with the chronology of events, with happenings appearing out of order and actions remembered in the wrong context.
Their reality is confused and they cannot tell whether they are experiencing what is happening in the real world or in an imaginary one.
They misinterpret events and do not think logically, instead, relying on their own perception of things that are typically fragmented and broken.
They have difficulty socialising with others due to sensory overload.
They come across as aloof or rude because they are constantly juggling voices or intrusive thoughts in their head.
They cannot focus on simple activities, this is regardless of how clever they are.
They can’t do two things at a time.
They often feel as if one or more senses are heightened or dulled.
Their emotions appear flat or blunted, speak in a monotonous manner, and appear apathetic.
The bright side of schizophrenia
The symptoms of schizophrenia are not always bleak and troublesome, however. In some cases, people with schizophrenia can actually see reality when healthy subjects cannot.
In the famous ‘Hollow Mask’ illusion, where a mask that is concave is shown to people with and without schizophrenia, most healthy people see the mask as convex, as you would assume a face normally looks like.
But those with schizophrenia are not fooled by the image. They see the concave image, what is actually being shown. It is thought that the reason people with schizophrenia manage to see past the illusion is to do with top-down and bottom-up processing.
The brain uses both top-down processing and bottom-up processing when it comes to sorting out visual information. Top-down processing holds our memories, it stores images we have seen before, whereas bottom-up processes what we actually see before us, the reality.
Because we are used to seeing people’s faces as a normal convex one, in healthy individuals the bottom-up processing is over-ruled, and our minds do not see the tell-tale shadows that give the image away.
In the test, both healthy subjects and those with schizophrenia were scanned in an MRI scanner where their brain activity was measured. When the healthy subjects undertook the test, it was shown that the front parietal network (associated with top-down processing) and the visual parts of the brain were strengthened. There was no such strengthening with those who had schizophrenia.
It is thought that healthy subjects fill in the gaps with what they are seeing and what is presented to them, whereas schizophrenic patients are not able to do this. This means that despite what we have come to believe about schizophrenia, in some cases, schizophrenics can actually see reality more clearly than healthy people.
References:
https://psychcentral.com
https://www.nimh.nih.gov
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felixJUNE 18, 2019 REPLY
I do not know on what it depends whether you can see the illusion, or not. My schizophrenia cripples me to the point it’s extremely difficult to even shower and eat, I don’t feel attached to reality at all anymore, thoughts are commanding me to do things and can barely go out on my own even to a store nearby, but I am still fooled by the illusion. Maybe it is because I hear voices rarely, at least for now…
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WHY OBSESSION WITH FAMOUS PEOPLE and HIGH GOVT AGENCIES??
why do schizophrenic people become obsessed with those high in government
and some of them actually think they ARE president or running for office such as a friend named
WIll I , A schizophrenic male associated with my youngest son
Does not know, is unaware of his own mental disorder(s) Paranoid schizophrenia
What is obsessive-compulsive disorder?
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a common anxiety disorder. It causes unreasonable thoughts, fears, or worries. A person with OCD tries to manage these thoughts through rituals.
Frequent disturbing thoughts or images are called obsessions. They are irrational and can cause great anxiety. Reasoning doesn’t help control the thoughts. Rituals or compulsions are actions that help stop or ease the obsessive thoughts.
What causes OCD?
Experts aren’t sure of the exact cause of OCD. Genetics, brain abnormalities, and the environment are thought to play a role. It often starts in the teens or early adulthood. But, it can also start in childhood. OCD affects men and women equally. It appears to run in families.
Other anxiety problems, depression, eating disorders, or substance use disorder may happen with OCD.
NARCISSISM
DELUSIONAL DELUSIONS
present with evidence contrary to his belief and he denies the truth of it
argues with the webster's dictionary about word definition
imagines many things that are not true
fixed false belief beliefs
UNTEACHABLE ANY INSTROSPECTIVE AREAS
absolutely not interested in self reflection, self analysis
AVOIDS, HATES, DETESTS
accounting
lists
mirror
Tuesday, September 5, 2023
Monday, September 4, 2023
Characteristics
politics. endless arguments going nowhere, no resolutions, solutions .problems abound and are rarely solved
socially inept reclusive antisocial
lives in the dark, keeps windows blinds curtains closed up trying to keep the temperature constant in the area
feels insignificant, worthless, stupid, lacking AND actually follows that description
puts limits on other people
believes in slaves, slavery, master. as of they can control other people in almost every area of life
freaks out over water on the floor or anywhere
can't do intense deep thorough cleaning
crams way too much stuff in any space creating difficulties
uses random containers cardboard boxes strange containers for items that do not belong in there, putting the wrong item in some box.
mismatched things, just about everything
lacks sense of order, streamlining, clean or neat balanced living or workspace
wants to keep just about everything imaginable
throws a hissy fit temper tantrum when anything is moved, lost, sold,
so it makes it difficult to find what i / he/she is looking for which makes work a whole lot harder way too much effort to try to do even a simple task like cook a meal, basic house cleaning
buys many different chemical agents cleaners that are supposed to be for that thing such as bathroom cleaner, window cleaner, such and such agent when in fact we do not need hundreds of diffferent chemicals to clean anything... just a few basic ones, WATER being the main one, which the narky seems to HATE with a passion
Saturday, September 2, 2023
Doesn't want to do anything recreational social or fun
Body conscious mother shamed kids for the appearance of their body